Moving forward with grief

I am being extra kind to myself today because today is the anniversary of my husband’s death. The grief is still there. It will always be there but this year it is different, just like every year on this anniversary.  Today marks six years since we lost Chris, my husband, to alcoholism. When my phone buzzed early in the morning and I saw it was from Andy, Chris’ best mate, the tears came. Today was the day and somehow it snuck up on me. I knew it was coming, but I lost track of the days. There was no escaping that today was the 15th May. 

Every other year, I have been busy. Busy doing anything to avoid the emotions, although I didn’t know that’s what I was doing.  Last year I sat by his grave and talked to him. And I cried.  It was a long much needed conversation, and I think it was the start of a different level of emotional healing for me. But before I got to the grave, I was busy. Busy looking for the right things to buy to take to his grave.I now know that being busy has been my way of avoiding feeling the emotions. The grief can be complicated and difficult to recover from, but you can. 

We don’t move on from grief. We move forward with it . I heard this in an amazing Ted talk – The messy truth about grief | Nora McInerny.  If you haven’t watched it, I highly recommend it. 

I’ve been moving forward with grief. Chris is still so very present with us. 

I see him through my kids every day. 

I see him in every birthday, holiday, anniversary and milestone. 

Last week my son submitted his dissertation for his university studies. The final line in his acknowledgement was to his Dad  “And to Dad, I wish you were here to read this.” 

The grief always shows up for these milestones. 

I’ve become comfortable with the grief.  I know that it will always surprise me, and when it does I stop, feel it all. I breathe. I cry. I’ve learned how to move forward with the grief, and grow around the grief. 

You can too.

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Kim lost her husband to alcohol dependency in 2017. She created the Blossome Community to help others enduring losing a loved one to alcoholism or addiction find a Pathway to Peace so they can let go of guilt/shame and live with self-compassion and joy.

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